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I’m Trying to Be a Good Aunt, but My Depression Is Getting the Best of Me

There are times you know when I’m not feeling myself, and no matter how many times I tell you “I’m fine,” you never fail to make me smile. I don’t want to look vulnerable around you, I want to set an example of strength and courage for you.

I don’t want you to look at your aunt and think bad of her or think she’s pathetic. So I keep pretending to be okay because I want you to grow up knowing you too can handle everything life throws at you.

Other times it’s as if you have no idea I’m suffering, or at least you do a good job of not showing it. Instead, you tackle me and tell me you love me, and even when I’m crying you tell me not to cry and that I’m your favorite person.

I swear your hearts are made of pure gold.

And I promise that even if you get sassy with me, or pull away from me as you get older, I will always love you. I will always support you no matter what crazy thing you want to do with your lives, no matter what piercing or stupid tattoo you want… I will always be by your sides.

I’ve known you and loved you since you were babies and that love is one that will never go away. We have a bond that will never be broken.