- You feel empowered.
There is no single greater feeling in the world than knowing you have the ability to completely uproot yourself at any moment, move completely across the country, and reinvent who you are and what you want to become. It’s invigorating. It’s empowering.
- You’re absolutely terrified.
This is natural. You’re leaving behind everyone and everything you’ve ever known in life. The only way you wouldn’t feel scared to some extent is if you’re a sociopath (which, you obviously aren’t). But that feeling of pure terror lets you know you’re alive. It lets you know that you’re doing the right thing for you.
- You’re beyond excited.
New place, new job, new life, new you. It’s all new. You get to explore an entirely new place, you get to meet entirely new people. You have no reputation to uphold. You get to just be whatever it is you want to. And that is the most exciting thing in the world.
- You’re impatient af.
You know it’s going to happen, and you just want it all to happen right now. This waiting game feels like such bullshit. It’s like a big game of hurry up and wait that you never accepted the invitation to.
- You don’t really sleep anymore.
Sleep comes in small waves of 2-3 hours at a time. You wake up panicking thinking you’re forgetting about something. You wake up wondering if this is really the right decision. You don’t really sleep at all anymore because you’re too. Damn. Excited.
- You realize how much you mean to people.
People you didn’t even know you had an impact on come out of nowhere to say how much they’re going to miss you. They try to find ways to make you stay around. Suddenly, everyone is sad, like you’re the final piece to a puzzle just got eaten by the dog.
- You feel like you can take on anything
The moment you learn you’re moving across the country, you suddenly feel invincible- like the world is yours for the taking. Suddenly, all those stupid little cliches you see all over the place make sense and you just want to buy all of them in the form of a motivational poster.
- You start missing everything.
Long before you leave, you start seeing things and are hit with an onslaught of emotions. Small things: coffee flavors, trees, different drinks…things you never thought were really that important suddenly become a big deal. You want to take them all with you.
- You have a panic attack…or three…a day.
Toward the end of the time you have left in your home state, you start panicking. What if they don’t like you there? What if you get lost and you absolutely cannot find your way back? What if you get so homesick you throw up every day for the rest of forever?
- You procrastinate, a lot.
Everything is so overwhelming all you want to do is nothing. And you end up doing nothing more often than you really should. There’s so much to do, but you have no idea where to begin because you literally have to do EVERYTHING.
- You feel as if everything in your life finally makes sense.
All the heartbreak, all the letdowns, all the failures. Every tear you cried, every scare you bear. It all led you up to this point. It all led you to where you are now. Everything has happened for a reason, and this, this is just the beginning of something even better.
