The truth is, I see that you are struggling. I know that the constant fight between your head and your heart has got to stop.
You are battling with the hard choices of life daily but you have got to tell yourself that it's going to get better.
No matter how hard it is to convince that stubborn mind of yours, it's worth a try believe me.
Many people would agree that you have not had the easiest life. You have been through a lot.
I know that most days you want to run.
Because running away has always been something that you do. You don't like to turn and face things head on, regardless of what it is that's standing there.
Confrontation just isn't your thing and thats understandable, but there comes a time when you need to face what life throws at you head on.
For one, I've watched relationship after relationship fail for you. I know this is something that has been wearing you down for years as you watch your friends having babies and getting married.
The easy thing to do is ignore the fact that nothing has quite worked out, but the thing to do is realize why and see what you can do differently.
But never blame yourself. It usually isn't a fault, it's just that the time wasn't right or he wasn't 'the one.'
You have to know that good things will come to you. It's just not your time to settle down.
It's your time to travel, and make the most out of being single. Stop searching and I promise the right person will come along.
And you need to be ready for that… and running away from anything that upsets you is not going to prepare you for that.
You need to learn how to love yourself before you can decide to love anybody else, and I know that you haven't been loving yourself lately.
You have to forgive those who have hurt you, and put that hurt into bettering yourself. You have to allow time for yourself to heal.
Don't worry girl, you'll get there. I have faith in you.