I know you may feel horrible about yourself, and say things about yourself that aren’t nice, but to me, you are a beautiful woman, who gave me and my brother life, and you deserve so much credit (I know me and B are the recreation of you but with attitudes 100x worse than yours).
You’ve raised headstrong, independent, and stubborn, kids and I think for the most part we are pretty rad.
You deserve credit for being a mother, wife, daughter, niece, granddaughter, etc.
you are brilliant when it comes to most things but sell yourself short on happiness.
you love hard but the only thing you don’t do is love “appropriately”, or know when to say that enough is enough and then change your perspective to see if it would make a difference. (hint: it always does make some sort of difference.)
Growing up, girls normally look up to their mothers, which I did towards you. You allowed me to see all sides of you, and it was a mixture of sadness, anger, happiness, and fright all in one. It gave me an early-on sense of life. You went through so much, and are still going through it and its 2017, and I’m not that little girl anymore, I’m an almost 19 year old, with such a high expectation of what I deserve because I saw that you lacked so much of it, and again, you still do.
You deserve to be reminded that you are beautiful every single day.
Because you are.
You deserve many things in life, and I wish I could provide it all for you.
You are my mom, you are my sunshine, even though you drive me insane.
Always, always, ALWAYS remember to NEVER change yourself for a man or anyone else, whether that be weight, hair style, clothing choices, etc. If you change something about yourself, do it because YOU want to, not because a someone told you to, or because you think it’ll make them love/like you more.
If they can’t love and cherish you like you do towards them, then are they even worth your time and effort?
Choose yourself and your happiness before a man and his happiness or anyone else in general, because at the end of the day, you are the only person to give a damn about your emotions, so choose to be emotionally healthy, for your own sanity.
So, to my mother who doesn’t love herself- START CHOOSING YOURSELF FIRST. BE SELFISH ABOUT YOUR EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS, AND LOVE YOURSELF WHOLE HEARTEDLY
I love you infinite and I hope this reminder is helpful either now or the future… or both.
Your favorite and only daughter,