An Open Letter to My Child, You Saved Me

“I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I’ve ever had… Everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. – Nicholas Sparks 

My dearest love,

You are the light of my life, you saved me.

You saved me from the pain and suffering that comes all too easily in this cold, bitter world, with just one smile.

You saved me from the anger that has filled my heart for so many years, with just one kiss. 

You saved me from all of the times that I’ve ever felt like I had no purpose, with just one word, “mama”. 

When the world comes crashing down around me; when things feel too stressful, all it takes is one look into your eyes, and I know that everything is going to be okay because I have you

You are so beautiful, so perfect in all of your ways. My only regret is not having you sooner, so I can love you longer. 

You have shown me the purest form of love. The first time I ever cried tears of joy was the day that I gave birth to you. 

The way that your eyes light up and fill with wonder so easily has taught me more than you could imagine. Too often, it is easy to take things for granted; things that I should appreciate and cherish. What I have come to realize while watching you grow is that this life passes us by way too quickly. It is important to soak in every second, because each moment is fleeting, soon to be nothing but a memory.

Your heart – so beautiful, so innocent, so pure, has never once been touched by true pain, bitterness or suffering. I dread the day that you feel your heart shatter into a million pieces, tears running down your face, not knowing where to turn.

Turn to me. 

Though I know all too well that there will be nothing I can say or do to mend your heart, I promise to be there to help you pick up the pieces. 

I promise to be there to listen to you, to hold you, to cry with you.

My wish for you is that you never feel alone. I pray that you never feel like you cannot come to me; there are no amount of mistakes in this world that could ever make me love you any less. 

You are a part of me, the best part might I add. 

You are my heart, my soul; everything that is good in this world. 

You are smart, you are talented. You are funny, and you are amazing.

You are hands down, my greatest accomplishment, my most precious gift. Nothing that I’ve done in my life before you is relevant. The second I gave you life is the second you gave me mine. 

You will never know the depths of my love for you, and all of the ways that you changed me for the better the instant that I set eyes on your beautiful face. 

You saved me.

Thank you for simply being you. 

All my love,

The luckiest mother in the world <3