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An Open Letter To My Now Boyfriend and My Future Husband

Dear Future Husband,

First off, I want you to know that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the one who makes me smile when I’m sad. You are the one who I can go to when I need a shoulder to cry on. You are the one who drives me crazy, but I never can stay angry with. You are the one who I would trust with absolutely anything, including my life. I’ll never know how or why I got so lucky to have you, but I’ll always be grateful that I do.

You are many things to me. You’re my shelter in the storm. You’re my stars that light up the night sky. You’re my best friend. You’re my partner in crime. You’re my player 2, but you’ll always come first. You’re my therapist who I go to when I need to vent. You are the one who I think of when things get tough. You keep me going, and there are no words to express how thankful I am for you.

I know relationships aren’t easy, and I know marriage is definitely not easy. I know all of this but still I want to marry you one day, because I would brave the fires of hell as long as I had you with me. I know that as long as we’re together we can make it through anything. We can make it through the stress of making money for a wedding. We can make it through planning a wedding. We can make it through getting a place and raising a family. We can make it through endless bills and long nights of work and long nights of a crying baby, as long as we have each other. I know things will get tough, and I know you will stick with me through all of it. Thank you for that.

Thank you for loving me now, before marriage, and for wanting to one day marry me. I know we will work out because you have seen absolutely every piece of me and still you’ve stayed with me and never stopped saying you love me. You’ve seen me at my absolute best when I’m in the car dancing like an idiot singing to my favorite songs. You’ve seen me when I laugh so much that I start crying like a total loser. You’ve seen me in beautiful dresses and you’ve seen me being the best version of me. The part of me that only you seem to bring out in me.

You’ve also seen me at my worst, and yet you still love me. You’ve seen me get angry with the world because I’ve had a horrible day, and yet you still sit beside me and you try to calm me down. You’ve seen me when I’m crying my eyes out for many reasons, and you just hug me and tell me that it’s going to be okay. And I know it will, because you love me. You’ve seen me when I’m completely insecure and feel like I’m nothing, like the entire universe is against me and whatever God or Gods in it are too. Yet you stay and you tell me that I’m more than I think I am, you tell me that you love me. For all of this, I love you.

I’ve also seen you in your best moments and your worse. From when you smile that beautiful smile that makes my heart melt, to when you’re yelling at the car in front of us while driving because they obviously don’t know how to drive. Yet, I love you. I love you when you’re happy, I love you when you’re sad, and I still love you when you’re mad. I love you when you get jealous, even though there’s no reason to be. Sure, other guys can flirt with me and try to win me over. They can say sweet things and claim that they’d love me. I know none of that would be true, though. Because I know that no other guy could see me the way you do. I know that no other guy could handle me at my worst like you can. That’s something only you can do, because you’re special. So know that you have no competition. Not now, not in a million lifetimes. You are the only one that knows me, and the only one that still loves me in spite of that.

We’ve been through many things together, with many more to come. I look forward to a life time of making you happy and treating you the way you deserve to be treated. I look forward to a life time of kissing you in the rain and telling you my darkest secrets. I look forward to a lifetime of ranting about my favorite books and listening to you rant as well. I look forward to many nights in the house with you watching Netflix, and many nights out eating in some fancy restaurant.

So, future husband, just know that I look forward to it all. From our first dog to our first kid. From our first apartment to our first house. From being young with you in fancy clothes and nights out, to being old with you sitting on our porch yelling at the young folk to get off our lawn. I look forward to our entire life together, because there is nothing in this world that could make me as happy as you do.

Know that no matter what I will always love you. I will love you even if we are angry with each other. I will love you through disagreements, and petty fights. I will love you through romantic nights and lazy ones. I will love you through funerals and weddings. I will love you through storms and through sunshine. I will love you through everything. No matter if you try to push me away, I won’t go. I will stay and I will love you with everything I have because you deserve nothing less. That is my promise to you. That no matter what happens in this life time or the next, I will never stop loving you.