She convinces herself that its a phase, the arguments, the tears, the hurt… that it will all just go away. She makes herself believe that love is enough to keep their relationship together.
She thinks that people who love each other have to go through the storm in order to get the rainbow, that there is no one else who she'll love as much as him.
She honestly believes that she was created, he was the one who she was meant for. So she holds on to the relationship long after it should have ended. She finds herself fighting for someone who does not care if she leaves or stays.
So it's time she lets go.
It is time for her to stand up for herself and realize that she deserves better. It will probably be one of the hardest things she'll have to do, to walk away from the person she loves… but she has to.
Because all toxic relationships need to end before it gets too consuming. Before she loses sight of her strength and ability to leave. She can't stick around and continue to give her all to some one who does not appreciate her.
It's not that she does things seeking appreciation, she does things for him out of love, but at some point, her efforts need to be returned.
For what feels like the entire relationship, she has been telling herself that his happiness is more important than hers, that if he's happy she's happy. That he will eventually give her the love she gives him.
While she tells herself that, she finds herself slowly become more unhappy.
All of a sudden the distance between her and her family, friends, and everything she used to love doing feels like it's oceans away.
She totally changed who she was in order to please him. And the day came when she looked in the mirror and realized she's not the person she once was. She's a shell of her previous self.
Smile dimmer, confidence is gone, and all she does is apologize even when she's not wrong. No matter how hard she tries she finds herself never being good enough.
When she does decide to walk away, she knows that she did everything she could to save her relationship. She gave every ounce of herself to their relationship, no matter what he gave, she always gave her all.
Guilt doesn't seem to affect her decision anymore. She feels sad, hurt, angry, but the guilt has melted away. She's finally now free.
She took that pain and turned it into something good. It wasn't right away, but she found herself.
Now she's that girl who lights up a room when she walks in, who everyone wants to be because she is so, so radiant.
She was fine before this relationship and she will be just fine after.
