They say the more intelligent the person, the higher chance they have at depression and anxiety disorders. They say it’s because of how often they over analyze every person, and situation in their lives. But tell me this, if I’m so “intelligent” then how come I’m never able to differ the good and bad people in my life? If I’m so “intelligent” then how come I end up putting myself in the same situation over, and over again, expecting a different outcome, but always end up getting screwed over?
They say I have a big heart, and that it’s an endearing quality to have. But tell me this: is it endearing seeing how often this big heart of mine ends up aching, and shattering?
The truth is, my heart aching and shattering, the people I allow to hurt me over and over again, and the opportunities I feel like i constantly fail at are my fault. I sabotage my own happiness to
A: Contribute to someone else’s happiness too much.
B: Look for happiness through other people instead of within myself.
C: Giving and expecting the same amount back
D:Giving up when one thing goes wrong
E:Allowing bad moments to consume my whole life
If I keep going through life expecting for every person I meet to have the same heart as me,and expecting to succeed at everything on the first try, i'll constantly find myself disappointed and discouraged.
This battle is within yourself, and no one else. The way people treat you is a reflection of them, as a person, it has nothing to do with you. But, you are in control of the way you let it affect you, and the way you choose to move forward. So, move forward with grace.
So, what if I stopped expecting back? What if, I put myself first? What if I practiced self-care? And what if I practiced saying NO? Life has a funny way of throwing things your way. But, it’s up to you to take the challenge, and turn it into a lesson learned, something beautiful.
If you’re reading this, and you’re feeling alone, mistreated, stuck, and like the world is out to get you just remember that you are a good person. You deserve to be happy, to feel wanted, and to live a happy life. So, the choice is yours, allow the world and people who mistreat you to consume you, or, love your-self, and be kind to your-self, learn how to be okay on your own. Believe in yourself, and dream big. Eat that extra piece of cake, binge watch that girly TV show, check out that cool coffee shop that opened up by your-self. When all else fails, and you feel alone, love yourself. And remember, you’ll be okay.
