I am broken. I am “damaged goods.” I am misunderstood. And that’s okay.
There are only three things I ask of you before you decide to love the broken girl.
Be patient with me, accept me for who I was, who I am, and who I intend to be, and most importantly just be there for me.
It won’t be easy with me. I’ll push your buttons, I’ll irritate you, I’ll have mood swings that will drive you crazy. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies, it’s compromise – sorry for the Maroon 5 reference.
I have demons that I’m constantly at war with, scars that I won’t talk about, and bruises that haven’t fully healed yet – I’m still a work in progress.
I don’t need to be saved by you. I don’t need you to play the part of Superman. I don’t need a hero, because I’m not a damsel in distress.
I also can’t be fixed, everyone has already tried. And maybe I don’t need fixing, maybe I just need someone to love me through it.
I’ve been hurt often, so I’m cautious. I don’t trust easily, please understand that when I don’t warm up to you right away.
The betrayal of others has created a burden on those who come next, and for that I’m sorry.
Which also means I don’t show my emotions easily. I come off as bitchy or unapproachable, but that’s my mechanism to protect myself.
You see, I guard my heart with a fortress, and allow only those who are brave enough to climb the walls. Once you get thrown back out though, it’s impossible to get through again.
It’s been planted in my brain like a seed that I will never be good enough. I’ve been told too many times to count that I’m not smart enough, not pretty enough, and not good enough.
I’m harsh on myself, I’m a hurricane, I’m self destructive and I can’t imagine anyone would want to be a part of that.
But there’s beauty in having your heart broken. It gives you the chance to put yourself back together again.
The thing about being broken is that you feel so much pain, that you know how to love.
When I love, I will love you with every fiber of my body. I will make you feel like a King. I will make sure you know you are appreciated and how much I adore you.
I will show you the beauty of being loved.
All I ask, is that you love me through it. That you take a chance on the broken girl, and stay.