No matter how someone feels you can never change theirheart. 3 months ago I told you that I was heartbroken and I never heard anything.I have seen you fix broken hearts and make sure they are mended but not mine.Why am I different?
Say something…..just say something. Look at me with youreyes and connect with me. Let me know you are still there. At one time I couldhave told you how you felt. But now even if I was to guess right, you wouldnever say that I am right. Silence is not golden.
No one is questioning the demands of life. But what was onceso effortless has become a struggle. Dealing with me is one of them. I know.What weighs me down is that I have become one of them. I struggle with that.But I have nothing. Nothing to go on, nothingto hear, nothing to see. Why is it now I question if you care?
Each day you would seamlessly say hello. No matter what dayit was, who you were with or what you were doing. You made me feel important; Iwas part of your world. The best was I could hear the smile though a text orcall. That was my Hippie Chick.
Where did you go? Did I chase you away? I could never saythat I did but in reality I did. Every good thing comes to an end. I can onlytell you what I feel. I have emptiness inside of me. Maybe I am crazy? Maybe itis not real? I do know you make everyone you encounter crazy about you.
To list the things I miss would be no different than theother people you have touched in your life. Honestly everyone misses the same.That one on one connection you give. Have the complex world grown out ofcontrol for you to handle? Did you create a monster with me?
Depression cannot be dealt with alone. You may feel as ifyou are. I understand it, good days are good, bad days are bad. There is littlein-between. You know this and I told you on day one. I am true to my word. Youare not alone. You have let me help take care of you before. I don’t want it tostop now.
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