Girl you have been sitting there thinking about him for far to long. You have let him tell you what you should do, when your doing things, and worst of all who you should be. You have given up so much and lived your life to help make his life just a little easier, I know.
I know you think moving on with your life is hard. And in many ways it will be for a really long time. The easiest things in life are not the ones worth living for. You will hurt and you will grow that is the beauty in your heartbreak. But do it for you.
You will have to relearn how to go about your day without him. You have learned after months of being together what it is like to have another person to depend on and text. You have learned to call and text this guy for hours one end. It has become schedule to plan or be together at certain times.
You will to call or text someone else when something amazing happens in your life. You will fight back tear when you think about how things use to me. The hardest part will be giving up on the day dreams that run through your head about him. You will want to do all the things that he said you should change about yourself.
Do it for you. Don't make those choices because of him. If there are changes to be made make them because it is something you want. If you make those changes for him he may never see them. He will never see all the dedication, love, and work you put in for him to be happy. Don't wrap your happiness around him because you will be in the place you are now. Alone.
If you want to become closer to God or your faith, great! Do it because it's something you want and need. You're working your butt off in the gym to be the toned girl he always said he wanted. Don't. Do these changes because it is your goal. Not because any boy told you in some way you were not enough.
You are more than enough for any person. Do the things you love and be with the ones that bring a true smile back to your face. There will come a moment in your life after a break up or a lose that you will break in a million pieces.
The best part is the day you wake up at peace with yourself. You know that you will give someone more than they deserve and one day that person will return the favor. They will never let you cry because you are hurting. They will support you and always support you. You will have the purest smile because you are a peace with life.
Be the person you want to be not who someone else wants you to be. You are a wonderful, kind hearts, and beautiful individual. You don't need to be arm candy for a guy. Nor do you in anyway need to take care of him. A man should treat you with respect and want to be with you as much as you do him.
I'm begging you do relearn how to do things for yourself. Put yourself first for once in a very long time. You struggle with putting everyone else's needs above your own. With this time of change you can allow yourself the things you've wanted.
Go out with your friends, buy the things you want, go get the ice creme, and what ever you do never feel sorry for being number one. You need to have worth for yourself because if you aren't worthy of your own time and affections why should you have that worth to someone else?
Just hold on and do it for you. Because he damn well didn't deserve you to give everything for him when he wasn't ready. So bring on your up swing girl and if you ever need we are always just a click away for support.
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