You know you deserve better, so why is it killing you that he's not fighting for you?
You fought hard for what you believe was worth fighting for. You did your part, and his actions showed that he was not in for the long run.
The truth is, you let him tell you and decide that you weren’t good enough. And you believed it. You didn’t live up to his unrealistic expectations of what a girlfriend or a relationship should be like and now your heart and soul are broken.
You're spending your days thinking about him, crying yourself to sleep, and trying to justify to everyone why you are still fighting so hard. But is all that worth it? What you’re failing to see, though is that he’s not the source of your unhappiness, you are. You let him get to you and now it’s hard to see your worth.
He is probably living his life without a second thought of you or how bad your hurting, and no one should have that much power over you.
He's not worried, affected, or upset by the fact that you don't speak anymore. He doesn’t see it as a mistake. He made the choice to ignore you when you try to talk and work things out.
It happened for a reason. It was not your fault because you’re good enough, he just failed to see it to appreciate it and that’s not on you. But you are still broken. He had you. He had the girl who would do anything for him . The girl who would give up anything to help him grow in life as well. Giving away so much of yourself hurts deeply.
But you must move on and the only thing preventing you from it is that you’re so focused on believing that you are not enough. You aren’t the one who wasn’t enough, you gave it your best and you fought tooth and nail to make it work, you didn’t stop trying even when you knew it was too late.
Your head is telling you, “You are doing the right thing”, “You need to let go”, “You deserve to be loved, cherished, and fought for because you deserve it for all you do”.
I know that it is hard to know that your head is right and your heart is wrong. It is time to trust your head and take to heart what others have seen from the outside. Looking into a window can often give light to those who have never tried to look out.