I knew that it was a bad idea. I shouldn’t have been so naive to think that it would be all rainbows and sunshine.
When you start seeing someone that was your best friend beforehand, it might seem like the best idea that you’ve ever had. In my case, I knew that it shouldn’t be happening. Even though I had feelings for him, I pushed him away when he tried to kiss me for the first time. Weeks before that, when I realized that I had feelings for him, I didn’t want him to think of me as his little sister, because I wanted more than that. The closer and closer we had become, the greater it felt.
Because he was my best friend, I always felt enough for him. I felt enough, because even before the madness, he had dealt with my boy problems and heartbreak and assured me that it wasn’t me.
After a while, I had been ignored on a regular basis. Even just as friends, we would text each other at all hours of the day. No matter how he wanted to spin this, I knew it was going to be the end of whatever was going on. I was his friend first, so I know how the cycle goes.. He’d just ignore their texts and start acting cold. I knew that what he was doing was the end of our friendship, because I too am the same way.
Don’t date your best friend, because I don’t even speak to mine anymore. As much as I wanted to be with him, losing our friendship hurts most.
