I honestly thought you were going to be the one. You were always so sweet to me, always wanted to spend time with me, and said the right things.
When we first started seeing each other, it felt like I couldn’t be happier.
We spent what seemed like every day together and always had fun. But what I didn’t realize I was ignoring all the signs.
You didn’t want me to leave you so I would call out of work to spend more time with you. I was seeing less of my friends because you didn’t like them.
We had these romantic dreams of moving in together, so I barely even saw my family anymore because I’d be at your house.
Everything I did was so you would be happy, but what I couldn’t see was that it was slowly destroying my life.
After our first “I love you” I started to realize the manipulation.
I would try to go out with my friends and the whole time I was gone you would tell me that since I wasn’t spending time with you that I must hate you. You threaten that you wanted to end your life if I didn’t come home soon.
That was the last time I saw my friends for a long time. A few weeks later I was at work and I got similar messages from you and a bunch of missed calls.
My boss told me if I left, I would be fired… There went my job.
Around the same time I lost my job, you told me I couldn’t continue to go to school because there were other guys in my class and you thought I would cheat on you.
There went my education.
After some time of neither of us having jobs, your family finally kicked us out. There goes a place to live.
You kept digging me into a hole that one day I’d come to regret.
You pushed my self-esteem down every day by accusing me of cheating and saying I was worthless. You took me down to a point where I was homeless, jobless, and had no one.
You made it so you were the only thing in my life. I had nothing anymore and now I see it was all because of you.
Looking back, I don’t understand how I fed into your toxicity, your manipulation, your abuse.
I’m just glad I realize what you did to me, and I’ve turned my life completely around. I have a great job, a new car, and my own home. You might have destroyed me at one point, but I rebuilt myself.
I gave myself life again. And that’s something you’ll never be able to take away from me again.
