Ever since the first time we meet I knew there was something there. Everyone pushed us to date and thought we would be so cute. From late night talks in the car to slowly hanging out I knew I could trust you. We would have never thought we would’ve dated this long, but we wanted to prove people wrong. People would ask me about you, they thought it was weird because you were younger. I thought it was weird too but I knew I would get past that. Age is just a number, and its true. You asked me on a date and I said yes, it was perfect and you were so nervous I thought it was the cutest thing ever. I felt butterflies whenever I saw you, I did not know how to act at first. You finally asked me to be yours and I said yes, but a part of me was scared. I was never a relationship person and I was terrified of what would happen. However, I told myself I would give it a shot. Immediately we hit it off, the first few months were perfect, but then the arguments started. They sucked and at times I thought I couldn't do this. But I loved you and I was willing to get through it. You slowly changed, at times you didn't care and at times I did not care either.
We dated for over a year and now we are over. I don't know what happened, and I am still willing to fight for it. Everyone tells me, give him time he will come back because he loves you. He isn’t a bad guy he needs his time. That's what I thought at first. When you left me I cried and cried and felt depressed. I didn't go to class for a while and every day and night I wanted to call you. I then realized you were able to go out and have fun. You have been on dates and are interested in someone else. I thought we needed time apart and I was hoping you’d come back. However, I finally came to the realization that you aren’t.
We made all these plans for the future, and now they are gone. I still wish they could come true, I wish you wouldn't have given up. You were my first love and I wish you were my only love. But its time to let go, its time to give you your space, we don’t knows what the future holds. Time, its something we have that can be taken for granted. We spent so much time together, and I will always cherish our memories even the bad ones. You were put in my life for a reason; you were taken away from me for a reason. I’ll find out why later on, even though a part of me wishes you were laying here next to me. But I want you to be happy, I do.
For everyone else, falling in love can be scary because you do not know what can happen. However, you live and you learn right? I will never stop loving you, no matter how hard it is.
