There was once a time I thought I would never find true happiness. There was a time I honestly thought I would die alone. I started to be ok with that. I could handle being alone. What I couldn’t handle was another liar, cheater, thief, abuser, or druggie.
Most men in my life were controlling. They made it out like I couldn’t be something unless they were in my life. I was only good because they were around. I was basically a waste of human flesh until they somehow saved me from going nowhere, just by being around.
When I finally gave up hope that I would have a future with a man in my life, I wasn’t as upset as you would think. I was ok with being alone, sure it sucked that I would never get my fairy-tale. It was hard watching friends and family finding their person. I knew I would survive though. I could be alone for the rest of my life and be happy.
When you walked into my life, I had no idea what I was getting into. I had no idea that I would honestly feel like heart break was worth a shot at just being next to you. You gave me hope for a new beginning, a possible future with someone. I wasn’t prepared for that, none of my friends or family were prepared to see me so happy so fast.
Everyone would ask me what I even really knew about you. They were happy that I was happy, but they didn’t understand how someone could walk in and so easily change my mind on love. They didn’t know you yet they couldn’t understand how I could know you as fast as I did. Few people understood how it was possible that within a few weeks I had given up on love and so soon I was wrapped into someone.
You came into my life like a tornado you swept my life right off the ground and turned so much of what I believed into something completely different. I’m not sure how you pulled it off myself, I’m not sure I ever will.
You made me see that I am not who every man before you said I was. You made me see how strong I am without a man in my life, which is weird because you became such a big part of my life. So much of what used to make sense suddenly stopped making sense.
I spent so much time thinking without a man I would be nothing, you showed me that a relationship works based off of how people complement each other. This is not about what who does more but what we both do to put in the time and effort for each other. Us being together is not a favor to one of us, it’s a choice for both of us. A choice we make every single day.
You gave this love a whole new meaning. You showed me that love is not what is hard. You have shown me that placing two different people together can be difficult. That there will be arguments, sometimes daily, how you get through that argument is how you define what you have.
I can honestly say that I would argue with you for the rest of my life and be happier than ending it and not having you to argue with. You have become my best friend. You have taught me so much about not only love, but myself.
You have given me hope for a future of happiness. You brought me out of the darkness I was lost in. You gave me something that I will forever remember; true happiness. If I can’t have a lifetime with you, you have shown me that I will have a lifetime with someone.
You have shown me that I do not have to change to be what someone else wants. You gave me joy when I lost track of what love was really about. You have and continue to show me what it feels like to really love someone. For that, I will forever be grateful.
