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FYI, You Don't Get to Control How I Feel, Ever

I am so sick of everybody having an opinion on my feelings. Last I heard, they were my feelings. Not anyone else's.

I'm so sick of being called 'dramatic' or 'complicated' just because I disagree with you.

Because, for the record, you don't get to choose how I feel. Just like I can't force you to understand why I feel the way I do. But that does not mean that my feelings are invalid.

Insulting me when I speak up without immediately assuming your viewpoint only proves your level of emotional immaturity, not the supposed 'fact' that I'm nothing but a drama queen. 

And if reducing my opinions and feelings to a labyrinth of drama is your only defense, then maybe need to rethink your own standpoint. 

The truth is that sometimes maybe I am dramatic; maybe I do blow things out of proportion occasionally, and maybe I am high maintenance, but I am who I am and I'm done apologizing for it. 

I'm through taking on the responsibility for your feelings when my own are more than enough to handle, and I refuse to be guilt-tripped when I choose myself over you every now and then.

So no matter what you do or how many insults you spit out at me, I am finished believing that I'm heartless for finally standing up for myself.

If my feelings disturb the balance of your fragile ego, then sorry not sorry, but I'm done walking on eggshells for you. I have things I need to say and I'm not going to bottle everything up just because it might upset you.  

I'm done sacrificing my well-being, my emotions and, at times, even my entire personality simply because you don't like it; because if you don't like it, then you can get over it.

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