I have no one to talk to.
I mean, really talk to.
I’ve never felt this way before.
I’m seriously heartbroken.
And I know if I tell someone how I’ve been feeling, they will either make another joke about me and him, say “I told you so”, or they won’t even take me seriously because no one ever took us seriously in the first place, which I can’t really blame them because I shouldn’t have taken us as seriously as I did.
But I put my ALL into us.
Into him.
I loved him more then I’d ever loved anyone in my life.
Yes, I know we obviously weren’t meant to be.
Yes I get that he wasn’t good for me.
Yes I know I can do and deserve better.
But none of that makes it hurt any less.
I loved him.
I was IN love with him.
I loved him so much and he broke me.
He broke my…no.
He shattered my heart into a million tiny little pieces.
He was my best friend and my everything.
I hate him.
But I don’t.
I love him.
But I know I shouldn’t.
I don’t understand my own feelings and it’s tearing me up.
He was the first person in such a long time that I’d felt that close to.
Now he’s gone and I feel empty.
I just want to feel whole again.