Dear you,
You may read this one day and you might not, but this is for you: best friend, lover, and everything in between.
You are the most amazing guy friend I have ever had. We laugh together, play fight, and I can tell you just about anything. We are closer than most in the way we know each other. I can read your thoughts before you say them and you know exactly how I think. It’s been six years of a great friendship- sure, we have ups and downs, but we always come back. And during those six years, I fell in love with you.
This time when we came back to each other over the holidays, it was different. You kissed me at that party we went to and I almost fell over; the alcohol had nothing to do with it. Six years is a long time to know someone and not have anything happen yet here we are closer than any two people can be.
I always wanted this, didn’t I?
It hit me like a ton of bricks, but
MY GOD, YES
I wanted this.
So much.
You terrify me, to say the least. I have loved you for years, waiting, wanting, and watching you go after other girls. I was the friend. All it took was a kiss and the rest of me fell headfirst even though you had my heart years ago.
I want to say that I got out of the so called ‘friendzone’ by doing something magical, but truth be told, I did nothing. I was a good friend that stuck around just as he was to me. And while most of you may think I’m crazy for waiting so long, it wasn’t done in vain. When you have a connection with someone, the right time comes eventually. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not patient with much, but with him I was.
So if you’re in the ‘friendzone,’ I’m here to tell you there’s no such thing. It is complete and utter bullshit. If anyone tells you that you are in it, it is nothing but an excuse. Yeah, you may be their best friend, but love always sneaks up on people in weird ways. 6 freaking years. That's a hell of a long time, but I have no regrets. Friendship that turns into a deeper form of love is something some people search their whole lives for. It’s something deep and worth fighting for.
I’m not sure how we ended up like this because I never predicated it, but I guess that’s what makes it so amazing.
You’re my best friend,
my sexy, handsome lover,
and everything in between.
I wouldn’t have it any other way.
