THANK YOU
For three years of my life I endured your metal abuse. It was very confusing and sometimes I wondered if I was the crazy one. You gave me crumbles of good times to hold on to and give hope of better times. But it was never truly better.
I endured your hurtful words, slamming of doors, one way arguments, throwing of food that I had to clean up, punching things, screaming that took my breath away, aggressiveness, threats of physical abuse and so much more.
I am a liar, an over exaggerator, b*tch, c*nt, slut, whore, promise breaker, immature and excuse maker according to you. Hmm, seems like a real winner you picked yet if I was all of these things why keep me around and not let me leave?
You never respected me and only saw me as a person who was “attractive” whom you wanted to shape and mold into your perfect idea of a spouse. You never got to know me for me which is really sad because I’m a good person.
You talked to girls behind my back and erased messages yet didn’t understand why I was insecure and untrusting. You “promised” me twice you cheated on me as a “joke”. Told me if you cheated it would be my fault because “a real woman makes sure her man is satisfied.” Who does that to someone they “love with all their heart”?
It was all about control but you made a mistake. You believed by putting me down and ruling by fear and intimidation that I would rely on you more, that I would never leave. But really you were just teaching me how to live without you.
The day I left you asked me “What are you even good for that I can’t do myself?” That is the day I packed my things and said “What would I be losing?”
That decision was the best decision of my life.
I don’t hate you, I’m not bitter towards you and I forgive you. But, I will never go through that again.
Without you I’m not sure if I would have ever know how to truly appreciate things on such an incredible level like I do now.
You have shown me what the worst type of relationship looks like. You have shown me the red flags to look for in someone whom I may be interested in. You have shown me to truly appreciate the little things when someone is putting forth effort. To truly appreciate when someone is putting me on a pedi stool and treating me like gold. To savor when someone is genuinely taking care of my heart and soul and proving it everyday with actions.
THANK YOU
You know what they say, your true love comes after the worst relationship of your life. ?????????
