As much as it kills me knowing you want her, it's probably killing you even more. My heart hurts for you. I see that pain in your eyes you carry with you. You desperately try to move on but for some reason, you hold on to memories of her.
I can only imagine what happened that day she broke your heart. The heaviness and pain that you still feel after all these years still control your happiness.
No matter how much you try to move on and let someone into your life, your reaction is to pull away.
Maybe this should upset me that I don’t have a chance in hell because you’re still living in the past; that your love is for another girl who has moved on long ago.
I have every right to be upset, but I know where I stand. I am the girl who you're just stringing along for no purpose at all. But I’m not upset with you.
I can’t imagine how that feels to love someone so deep. Maybe that’s the reason why I have allowed you to string me along for this long. Maybe my feelings are that deep for you that I just can’t let you go the same way you can’t let her go.
Maybe what you’re holding onto is the idea of her. The idea of what the two of you could’ve been.
The idea that she was supposed to be the one for you but it turns out she wasn’t yours to begin with. Maybe you are holding on to her because at that point in your life, that was when you needed her the most but she fell through and let you down.
But what I do know is she wasn’t good enough for you. She didn’t know how to love you. And that’s what torments me the most… knowing I can love you if you just let me in.
Give me a chance without pushing me away. Allow me to help you heal. Allow me to love you. And allow me to give you what you deserve.
It pains me to know that the feelings that you have for her will not go away anytime soon. Someone that loves you for you is standing in front of you, if you could just let me in I know I could be your rock, your purpose and the light you need to move on.
You deserve so much more than to live in the past. You deserve a future with someone that can love you for all your imperfections.
Remember I'm not her. I'm not the one who hurt you. I'm not the one who betrayed you or let you down and left you when you needed someone the most.
I'm the girl who will build you up, bring you happiness, and be your partner in crime.
Please don’t punish me for what she did. Don’t let your heartache stop you from the love that’s right in front of you. I’m here ready to love you… but only if you will allow me to.
