When things first went down I went insane. I didn't know what was what any more. I didn't know who to talk to, how to function, what do do, what to say, how to act, or anything. I became stuck. It seemed that time had froze for 5 months.
You became my best friend and when my best friend left me I was left speechless. You were the one I wanted to text and ask how your day was. You were the first person I wanted to call when something exciting happened. But i couldn't….
My parents and friends knew when I was having a good day because the chances are I either saw you or talked to you that day. And they knew when I wouldn't because I would most likely come home and sleep and not talk to anyone.
As things got better and we were able to be on a friends level, I don't think you understand how sane you keep me. I know my family see's it. I know my friends see it. But I don't think you do.
I don't think you will ever understand anything. I don't want you to keep me sane anyone. I don't want people to constantly point out how perfect we are for each other. I don't want my face and smile to light up like it's Christmas morning when I talk about you to other people. I don't want to like you the way I do. I don't want to sit and wait for you anymore.
I want someone who wants me as much as I want you. I want some else to put a smile on my face. I want someone who wants me to keep me sane.
