I gave my heart away a long time ago to someone who hasn’t given it back, so how could I possibly begin to give it to someone else?
We started off as friends, then more, and then nothing.
But as for right now, we are stuck in the same love-me-love-me-not carousel game we’ve always been in. It just never stops.
I fell in love with you when we were still kids and you were always my person. I guess you could say I never stopped falling because if I wasn’t, I wouldn’t be here.
Any sane person would have cut you out of their lives, but you’re not just any person. My friends have all told me I’m crazy to still love you after you’ve hurt me so deeply. I am moving forward, but still full of love and some days I hate myself for it.
Nice guys have come along, but I shut them down before it begins. I still see you everywhere I look. Why would I drag a nice guy into the same situation I’m in? It wouldn’t be fair.
And yeah, people are gonna say that I should give them a chance, but I won’t if I’m just going to break their heart. I can't commit to someone if I'm thinking about someone else.
I know all too well how that feels. I will never use a nice guy to get over someone. And that's why right now, I'm looking for someone a little more… fun.
I’m a good girl. I played by all the rules, but I don’t want a good guy at this point in my life. I’m not ready because I’m still getting over the past.
I know it sounds all wrong, but a bad boy doesn’t want commitment, which means I can’t hurt him. He isn’t looking for a future so things can’t go anywhere. He has no expectations and I don’t want any put on me.
If I ghost him, he could careless and if he leaves, I wouldn’t give him a second thought. It’s all physical. He’s hot and he wants to be used.
He doesn’t mind if I just want to have fun and I don’t want to be judged for that.
Girls can sleep around, too, when their hearts get broken.
I’m not at all saying you should or that it’s healthy, but don’t hold yourself back because you are stuck on the one who broke your heart.
One day I will find my right guy, I just know it. It may be years from now, but he will show up. He’s never going to leave me confused about where I stand in his life or make me feel unwanted.
I am guarding my heart for the one man who is crazy about me. I don’t want to let myself fall in love with another boy who just doesn’t see a future with me.
One day when I am over you, I’ll be ready to settle down with my future. But until that day comes, I’m going to talk to whoever I want, go on as many dates as I please, and if they come home with me? Who gives a damn.
This is my life and I won’t be judged for turning the good guys down at this time. It’s my choice when I’m ready to move on from the past and today I’m just not quite there yet.
I won't be shamed for putting myself first.
