I’m still picking up the pieces from last time I got my heart shattered. So if you think I will love or trust easily anytime soon, you are damn wrong.
It is not that I don’t trust you specifically or that I’m not into you, but my heart is currently broken and I’m busy trying to put the pieces back together.
Right now I feel a pain that I never want to feel again. How I deal with that is my choice, it’s not your place to criticize me for having trust issues.
Maybe one day I’ll be whole enough to tell you just how badly I was hurt, but for right now, have patience with me. If you stick around though this I’ll know for sure you are a keeper.
I know I have my walls up pretty high but you need to give me time and keep trying to break them down.
I want to trust you, I want to let you into my life, but that’s no easy task.
You asking me to trust you feels like being told to jump back into the water when I’ve just nearly drowned and am still struggling to take a breath.
I physically can’t because the pain I felt is something I never want to feel again.
I am fearful of my walls being broken down again by the wrong person and I’m not ready to even take a chance on that happening.
You could be my soulmate or Prince Charming, it doesn’t matter: I’m not ready to fall for someone or trust again.
You’re asking for my heart, but I can’t give it to you because it’s still in a million jagged pieces from last time I tried to share it with someone.
In the back of my mind, I’m hoping that you stick around though these times and that you truly are a good guy.
I want to be wrong about the likelihood that you would hurt me the way he did, but I just don’t know yet. I need you to gain my trust slowly.
The fact that you care enough to realize how broken I am and want me to trust you shows a lot, so please don’t walk away now.
If you turn away, I will stay broken. I am trying my hardest to repair my heart and love myself a little more each day, but your love could be the glue that holds my heart back together.
So when the day comes that I’m ready to let love in again, you will absolutely be my first option but only if you stick around and show me you’re worth the risk of heartbreak.
Show me that your love is worth letting my guard down for and that you deserve my trust.
Give me time to love myself then maybe, just maybe, I will love you with everything I have left.