I loved you from the very beginning. Everything I did was for you; there was no doubt in my mind that you were the one I wanted to be with.
But, in loving you, I lost myself. I tried so hard to be the "perfect girlfriend" that I let go of the person I actually was.
I forgot how to be outgoing and have fun because I was too busy trying to prove myself to you and your friends. I forgot how to show my feelings because I was always working to hide them.
I always did exactly what you said because, more than anything, I just wanted to make you happy.
"Don't overreact," I told myself, "you don't want to be that girlfriend. If you're not careful, he'll think you're overbearing and trying to control him."
I loved you with every piece of my being. I loved you more than anyone, even more than I loved myself. That's where I went wrong.
But one day, something finally clicked inside of me.
I was tired of hiding who I really was just to please you.
I looked in the mirror and couldn't even recognize myself anymore.
I realized things weren't really okay. I wasn't going out of my way to stay with you because we were happy, I was doing it because I was afraid of losing you.
That's when I knew that I had to leave; not because I didn't love you, but because I finally loved myself again.
I loved you more than you'll ever know but, in that moment, I realized I loved myself more.