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I Need to Be a Priority and You Refuse to Make Me One

It wasn’t until you that I believed in actions speaking so much louder than words. Your words are the shakiest foundation I’ve ever encountered and I cannot keep depending on them for structure.

You bombard me with hollow, meaningless talk that’s meant to overwhelm me with whatever emotion you want me to feel that day.  You never made me a priority.

I am so sick and tired of you constantly telling me you care when you make it so incredibly obvious that you don’t.

I don’t want to hear it anymore. I don’t want to give myself any more false hope; I’m done believing your lies.

The truth is, you don’t care about me – you couldn’t care any less if you tried.

If you did, you’d make time for me and put in some effort.

I’ve reached my limit. I’m beyond done putting myself through Hell for you.

I spent so long trying to be everything you needed, thinking if I could just do that you’d finally love me in return, but you don’t, you can’t, and I’m officially over it

Because I deserve better. I need someone who will put me first the way I always did for you; somebody who wants to see me every single day and truly cares about what’s going on in my life.

I refuse to be your backup plan anymore; I’m done letting you get away with treating me so carelessly.

So goodbye, and good luck finding someone who’ll stick around and put up with you for as long as I did. 

Not everyone is as willing to deal with toxicity as I am.