It hurts like hell to look back at the past now. A couple months ago there was no doubt in mind you were in my future. I thought we would make it, that we could fight through the bad to find the good. I thought we had a never-ending thing, but apparently, you didn’t agree.
I was convinced that we were perfect for each other. You made me feel safe. I never thought I had to even question losing you. Your actions made me think that we were going to last. You said we can make it through anything.
I should have guarded my heart. You didn’t deserve all of me. My heart deserved to be protected. Instead, you blindsided me and shattered my heart into a million pieces. I paid the consequences for loving you. My soul continues to bleed from the excruciating pain of your betrayal.
The worst part was I never saw it coming. You loved me until the moment you blindsided me. Maybe that’s why it hurt so bad, you had my whole heart when you decided to shatter it and walk away. Left me there, helpless and hurting.
I used to not be able to imagine life without you. Now, I'm being forced to figure out how to live each and every day without you. You weren’t only my boyfriend, you were my best friend, my everything. When you walked out, you left me with nothing.
You made promises you couldn’t keep. You told me thing you didn’t even mean.
Being broken down to nothing has brought me some clarity. You didn’t want to fall in love with me, you just wanted me to love you. That’s why the relationship wasn’t for you, you wanted a one-sided love that I couldn’t give you.
You had full control of my heart and my emotions, but I couldn’t break down your walls. You didn’t want this to get too personal because you just wanted the love and attention, you didn’t want to get too involved because you were scared you MIGHT just fall in love with me.
Every time you got a glimpse of who I truly was, you got ready to run. You weren’t ready for anything serious. Too busy being selfish and self-obsessed.
You weren’t prince charming, you just wanted something temporary that could fulfill all your needs. You wanted some of me, not all of me. Only the parts of me that benefitted you.
It’s not fair that you broke me just because you weren’t ready for love. You played with my emotions and got what you wanted. Left me here with open wounds that still hurt. I didn’t deserve any of this.
It's time you man up and realize that you can’t go around breaking hearts because you can’t deal with your emotions. You lost a girl that would have given you the world. You missed the chance of a lifetime to be loved endlessly.
I don’t take it personally anymore because I know that it is your loss. One day, I will love someone the right way and you will see everything you missed out on.
We could have lasted, we could have had a fairytale love. But, that’s not how things worked out. So I hope one day you see your mistakes a treat a girl the right way.
While you are off realizing every mistake you made, I will be finding better. Someone who will love me the way I deserve to be loved.