We were taking things slow, why rush if we were committed to every moment we were sharing together. Our conversations lasting well into the night until we both fell asleep next to our phones. Texts every day, magical dates at least once a week. We smiled, kissed, and snuggled. We met each other’s parents and I felt like “Yes! Finally!” I finally found the one who would commit and would do right by me.
Of course, why ruin a good thing? One day soon we’d give it a label. That’s what I told myself, day after day, week after week, month after month.
I stopped seeing other people, I figured you definitely knew that this was for real. We were basically official, right? I tried to communicate this but it was waved off with just “I want to keep taking things slow”. I should’ve known but hindsight is 20/20.
I didn’t care until I saw you with her. Then it stung, we definitely weren’t together. I felt crushed, my hopes dashed and my heart aching. I was hurt deeply, I was crush and betrayed. What did everything we had mean? Why would you string me along for so long? Every moment of tenderness we had turned out to be a lie.
Yep, you all were right. Nothing was ever really talked about but actions speak louder than words. And you showed me and told me that you loved being with me.
You were so cold to me when I confronted you. That still didn’t stop my tears, anxiety, and heartache. You knew so much about me, my struggles and flaws, but that didn’t stop you from leaving. I cried out asking why I was so upset.
Then it hit me like a bag of bricks.
I was upset because we never got a real chance. Love was there and you threw it away. We never tried and the unknown hurts. You never even tried to make this work. I wanted to try but you decided I wasn’t worth the hassle. My friends and family ask me what happened to my ex-boyfriend.
I reply saying he wasn’t an ex-boyfriend, he was an ex-something that never gave us a shot.
I have learned a very harsh lesson. Never again I will allow a guy to take so much from me. I will never allow my heart to be so broken by deceit.
