You weren’t ready for me. You want to try and convince yourself that you were but you weren’t, and that’s not your fault. We thought we wanted the same things in the beginning so it seemed like a match made in heaven. But as time went on, only one of us was actually moving forward.
Sometimes we think we want something until it comes time to actually show the action. Sometimes we are scared of moving forward, scared of the change, scared of a new territory, stepping out of a comfort zone. Not everyone is strong enough to handle that unknown part.
Our needs grew different, further and further apart. I tried to talk about it, but I got nothing but words. I’m at a point in my life where actions are more important. This life is new to me as well, but I’m willing to take the gamble and have things not go my way at first.
I’ll never learn if I don’t make mistakes along the way. I wanted to make those mistakes with you, so we could grow and learn about each other and learn about the life we are trying to create. But I just couldn’t get you there. I tried and tried so hard but all I ended up doing was hurting you.
I am a strong woman and don’t need a guy to validate me. But I wanted you. I wanted things with you. I just wanted to be different and someone you couldn’t live without. But you showed me that I wasn’t any different and that you just needed a void filled. I refuse to be that person for you. I don’t want to be someone that fills an empty space.
When I find the person for me I won’t be filling an empty space. I’ll take a leap of faith so I can experience all that love is suppose to be.
It’s sad that you ended up not being my forever love, but I have no regrets as I know I’ve given it my all. I’ve learned the lesson.
You need to find what you are missing within yourself. We could have been great. It could have been forever. But I just couldn’t get you there.