I think that it's safe to say that you affected me in such a short amount of time. We knew each other before things had become romantic, I never knew I would come to see you in the light I did.
I won't regret what we had; or, well, didn't have.
You made me feel good for awhile and I really needed it in my life, and for that I thank you… But I'm still left wondering…
Why did you bother speaking to me in the first place if you had no intentions of actually pursuing me? I never saw the point in talking for hours about deep things, we talked all day every day.
If you're just gonna use someone you usually don't stick around for as long as you did. Maybe I misread the cute messages, the late nights cuddling and joking around. I planned on you being around for awhile
Why were you always so jealous and possessive over someone you didn't want to be your own? This is something, I guess maybe I'm crazy and don't understand. What was the point of preventing me from talking to guys when you weren't going to make me yours anyway?
You let someone cut everyone off, for you to not even stick around. There's got to be a reason but I'm missing it completely.
Why her and not me? This is the one question that runs through my mind the most. Seeing your photos together and wondering why you didn't want me to be the one in those pictures with you.
I thought that we were going somewhere. You simply went from "I don't want a relationship" to being in a committed on in weeks time.
Do you ever miss me? Stupid… maybe. But I was so invested in this person, and felt so passionately about and opened up to on may different levels.
You sometimes wonder if that person ever regrets not giving the person that would have tried to give them everything a chance. I'm not dissing on this new girl, I'm sure she's wonderful, you're with her.
We had such a good time together and I wanted to give you everything. (I understand that could have been the reason this blew up in my face).
These few questions are the ones that seem to haunt me the most. I do feel incredibly stupid because I should probably be over it.
But I wanted to explore the possibles of us together. Although it didn't happen, I'm happy something happened because you helped me open my heart to the idea of being with someone after years of closing myself off to people.
I wish you more than the best and I can only hope that the next person I open myself to I can have better communication and understand where they want the relationship going.
I believe everything happens for a reason, doesn't mean it just stops stinging overnight.
