You know when you get that feeling where you’re instantly drawn to someone?
You cant put your finger on it on why, but you want and need to know more about them. What they do, who they are, you want to know every single thing about that person.
That happened with you. From the first day you asked me to go out with your friends. I had to there was no second option, I needed to be with you that night for an unknown reason at the time. Now I understand.
You walked into my life when I still didn’t know who I was or what I wanted, when my life was so up in the air and yet you loved me anyway.
You were the highest high id ever felt. I was secure, safe, and wanted.
I don’t know when it happened or how it happened but in the blink of an eye it crashed down faster than I could have realized it… I lost you in the process of learning who I was.
I was angry, hurt, cold-hearted and mean. I loved you but it never felt as though you had. You were never one for showing your emotions.
The day it all turned to dust, the butterflies, the fairy tale ending was the darkest day id ever had. You hated me, over a he said- she said situation. You broke my heart, and I know by me leaving I broke yours.
Months went by, I missed you every day but I wouldn’t call. I had to keep my pride. Until I broke down, I finally called after watching old videos and looking at pictures all night I had to.
The second you answered the phone and I heard the raspy sleepy voice I missed my heart sank. I was mute I couldn’t talk, my heart was in my stomach and it was taking all I had not to break every wall and make everything okay. It wasn’t that simple.
We’ve never been simple, our relationship was always rocky, the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. But I loved every second with you.
After that phone call, I couldn’t stop I needed to talk to you. Messages passed back and fourth, random phone calls, to finally seeing you for the first time.
When I realized nothing I could do would change your mind, to make you love me like you had, when I was too oblivious to see it, I tried to move on.
I promise I fought like hell every day not to contact you; I kept myself busy with friends and work. Nothing was enough, the heartache every day was still there.
Until I finally messaged you after you called me. That’s when it all changed.
I saw you again after weeks of not seeing one another, everything was perfect the entire night no one could have wiped the smile off my face.
We walked and talked like everything had never happened. We were back and in my mind I knew everything was going to take time, but you’re worth every second. I was just enjoying being the sole reason for the smile on your face.
From there is where it all began..
You flipped a switch; you were back and into my life. I never stopped loving you I never will. A love like ours isn’t what people see in the movies with the happy beginning and end, it’s hard. But isn’t that what love is, to fight like hell to make it work?
You believed I gave up on you, I can promise I never did. You have always been my prince charming, with the way you make me laugh until my sides hurt, the way you make my heart skip a beat with three simple words, the way you handle every situation bad or good, the way you love me.
I cant promise a fairy tale, and I cant promise I wont get upset or be the cause of an argument, but what I can promise is no one in this world will ever love you like I do.