Until I met you, I never understood when people said they fall in love with their significant other all over again every time they see them, or that they fall harder every single day. I never thought this was possible. Then you came along and I finally get to experience what they were talking about first hand. I now know that I will never finish falling in love with you.
Now five month into our relationship you would think I would have you memorized by now. With every question answered, But you just always keep me learning something new. It is like every day with you is still a mystery or a sweet surprise. I never know what new thing I will learn about you or what cute thing you do will become my new favorite memory. Five months later and I am still falling like the day I first met you.
It is hard to explain what it feels like to be continuously falling for someone. To fall more and more in love every day. It is rolling over in the middle of the night to see you fast asleep next to me and feeling so lucky that you are mine. It is worrying every time you leave my house to drive home or wanting to know every detail about your day. It is the way you take care of me when I am drunk or sick or simply just having a bad day. It is me worrying when you stay up late and are tired the next day, or when you skip a meal during the day.
It’s still wanting to hold your hand as we walk through the store or refusing to fall asleep until I hear you say goodnight. It is refusing to pullout of your driveway until I receive a kiss good bye. It is the way your smile can make my worse mood better or how your laugh is my favorite sound. It is how everyday a new memory is made between us. It is all the late night drives, the I love you’s, I miss you’s and kisses goodnight. The way that a name I never thought twice about is now my favorite and always will be.
Falling in love all over again every day is wanting to spend all of my free time with you. My favorite moments and memories always include you. It does not matter what we are doing. We could be going out on a fancy date or just staying in to cuddle on the couch. I know that the thought of anything-bad happening to you makes my heart drop down into my stomach. The idea of losing you or you being taken away from me makes me sick to my stomach.
You know the moments when I am so mad at you I only send one letter text messages if I even reply at all or I give you the silent treatment and leave the room? I still love you in those moments. I love you in every moment of every day. I love you more today then I did yesterday and I will love you more tomorrow then I do today. I promise to never let us go to bed angry and to tell you I love you and apologize if I do something wrong.
Life with you is just one adventure after another. An adventure that I never want to end. I want to spend my entire life making memories with you. You make me the happiest girl ever and I cannot wait to have a future with you. All of the forehead kisses, tickle fights, exchange how our days went, all of the plans we make and new adventures we take. All the times you make me laugh or feel like the luckiest girl alive. It is all of these things and so much more that leaves no doubt in my mind that I will never finish falling in love with you.
So here I am. Still wanting you. Still all in and still falling. I still get nervous and butterflies when I see you, I still dream about this, about us, about our future. And after every night falling asleep holding you, after every good morning text, after all the things we’ve been through, after every day and every minute that has passed this still feels like something new. I am still learning and still falling.
I will forever still be falling.
