First, let me be clear, I’ve accepted that my feelings for you are still here but you constantly being on my mind has become a little too much.
I shouldn’t be standing by my Keurig every morning waiting for my coffee to brew and be thinking “I wonder if he had coffee this morning too???? even though I know damn well you like to start your day with a steaming cup of Joe.
I don’t need you reminding me day after day that I can’t have you. I get it. It’s almost as if you find it funny to continue on with the little things you do. Those things you know keep my mind running straight to you.
I don’t need you replaying every moment we spent together so I can analyze where it went wrong for the umpteenth time. I’m never going to have that answer.
I don’t need to get frustrated when I realize I’m making choices based on what reaction you could possibly have towards it. It’s slightly ridiculous. And I feel like I am in middle school and high school all over again.
So if you could go take your perfect smile and contagious laugh somewhere else that would be great. Because my mind is ready to be focused on something else. Or someone else for that matter.
There isn’t room for me to dwell over someone who’s busy with someone else. It isn’t fair, yet here I am struggling to release your perfectness from my head.
I know we had some good times. You made me feel a certain way which is probably why I’m struggling with this as much as I am.
I know I will see you all the time. We run in the same circle. My friends are your friends and your friends are mine. Which is something I am going to have to get used to.
And honestly, I am good with all of this. I am good with seeing you around. I am good with interacting with you. I am good with being your friend.
I just need you to stop being on my mind all of the time. Okay? Okay. I’m glad we had this talk.
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