You’re beginning to wonder what it is you should be, how you should act, and where you fit in all of these contradicting realms of what this guy wants from you.
He’s sick of the drama and just wants “chill.” When, in reality, drama and crazy is what he craves. He says he’s “tired of the games,” but gets bored after the chase is over.
He wants educated and smart, just as long as you don’t intimidate him.
He’s into your jealousy and possessiveness, even though he’ll stress the importance of “loyalty” and “trust.”
He wants “ride or die”, but also all of the space.
He says he’s looking for a stay-at-home, sweatpants kind of girl who doesn’t go out clubbing, yet he gets bored way too easily. He wants to play house “take care of you”, but only as long as you take care of him more.
You want to be what he wants, but you’re not sure what that is. He can’t ever stick to anything he says.
He “loves your body type,” but his Instagram likes sing a different tune. He’s dealt with the crazy and heartless and says he’s tired, but is he really tired
Does he even know what to do with a heart like yours? With loyalty like yours?
He’s only known the game, so is it possible for him to put down the top hat and realize that no, he who cares the least does not hold the most cards? That mutual respect, adoration, support, teamwork, and effort are really the key players here.
You try to play his game, but you lose every time. You’ll always care the most — it’s just how your heart is built.
Sometimes you feel pathetic because all you have to offer is a good heart that’s been torn down and repaired so many times by men who swore they’d keep their promises and never followed through.
So you try so hard to be bitter and cold and shut love out because clearly, it doesn’t exist. Right?
But maybe he’s just the wrong guy. Because the right guy wouldn’t want you to be anyone but yourself. To him, you are definitely enough, flaws and all. In fact, in his eyes, you are more than enough, you’re perfect.
So remind yourself that love does exist and you just haven’t found it yet. That someday your prince will come along because that’s what we know to be true.
One day you’ll find someone who can pick up all of your pieces and make you whole again.
So you continue to love and continue to give your all because unlike him, that’s all you’ve ever known how to do. But don’t lose hope, because one day…one day, I promise it will be enough.
The right guy is out there, you just have to give him some time to find his way to you.