I'm okay with being alone. I like being with someone, don't get me wrong. Having someone to cuddle with, go out to places with, have amazing sex with; all things I wholeheartedly enjoy.
Yet, I have learned that I don't need anyone in my life to be happy.
I used to be the girl that pinned all my happiness on my partner. I couldn't see beyond our relationship and thought the end of it meant the end of myself as a person.
I realized how wrong I was after a few months of being by myself.
There's an emotional freedom to being single. My overthinking brain doesn't have to analyze every text or tone, wondering if it holds some other hidden meaning. I don't feel insecure that my feelings aren't being reciprocated by someone. No one but me is in charge of my happiness.
I definitely don't need you in my life, but I certainly want you in it.
However, I love myself enough to know that I shouldn't accept anything less than what I deserve out of a relationship. I want you, but I want you to want me too.
I'm not about wasting mine or anyone else's time; I know who I am and what I want. If you don't, that's fine. Just have the courage to tell me.
If you don't want me in your life the way that I want you, just be honest with me. It'll hurt, I'm not going to lie. It'll hurt because I see the potential in what we could be, and will think you're making a big mistake in letting me go.
But that's your mistake to make. I can't take it away from you or try to convince you otherwise.
Nor will I try to. I spent too long in the past trying to convince someone of how amazing I was. I won't do it again; it should be utterly obvious.
There's nothing in this world that could compare to what I have to offer someone. For the first time in my life, I'm confident in that fact and it won't be shaken.
'So if you're gonna leave, you better get going. 'Cause I ain't wasting no more time on what we did, and what we didn't. So if you're gonna leave, yeah you better start running. 'Cause I ain't wasting no more time, on what might have been.' Emerson Hart – If You're Gonna Leave
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