Your thoughts infect you and the feeling of insanity begins to set in. It hurts so bad when you soak your pillow in tears at night with nobody there to hold your tissue.
Then you pick up your phone and want so badly to call someone, but nobody is worthy enough. You know that the chances of someone picking up are little to none.
It's so unfair, isn't it? You drop everything to pick them up when they have stumbled, but you have fallen so far in the cracks that everyone else can't figure out how to pull you out.
Is it too much to ask of them all to just sit with you in your silent struggles?
You scroll through your phone in attempts to find a distraction from the demons trying to tap on your shoulder. You try so hard to ignore the thoughts that seem to rain down with such intensity throughout the night.
Wouldn't it be lovely if someone came along in life and all of a sudden someone got it? Someone would finally understand how to comfort you when life seems to just fragment in front of you own eyes.
You crave the moment another soul clicks with yours.
It takes one hell of a soul to live the life that you are living. It takes one hell of a soul to ignore their own demons until everyone else around them is calm and collect.
It takes one special human to love everyone else more than they love themselves.
You must know that you are that one special person. You are a grace to the world you are in.
What goes around, comes around. I promise you that someday soon, you will be able to feel the love that you give to everyone else.
Some day soon you will be able to sleep soundly without the pain of your own thoughts haunting your head on that tear soaked pillow.
You are truly an amazing soul.
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