I want you all to know that you only have one life and to never take it for granted. After years of his bullshit lies and shady acts, I went crazy. I fell into a deep depression. I lost weight. I felt hopeless. I needed antidepressants just to stay sane.
And worst of all? I tried to take my own life. All over a boy.
I questioned myself almost everyday: "Why do I want to be here If I will never be able to make anyone happy? Why does a shitty person like me get to be on this beautiful thing we call earth? What could I have done better? Why do I wanna live my life depressed?"
I started going to therapy and to outpatient hospitals to talk to other girls in my situation.
Therapy saved my life. My family saved my life. My friends saved my life. You are never alone. Don't ever feel like you are alone.
I'm here now to say you ARE worth it and you WILL find happiness again even if it doesn't seem like it. You will find love again. Everything happens for a reason. There are so many fish in the sea.
Suicide is never ever ever ever the answer. No boy, no nothing is worth taking your own precious life.
I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for my family. I'm so grateful to be alive and well.
For now, I am looking out for myself and living my life. Know you don't need a man to make you happy.It is ok to be alone. Only you can make yourself happy. You can't control anyone but YOU.
God has a plan.
Oh, and remember: You is Kind, You is Smart, and You is Important.