“I Love you too much, too intensely, too often.. and for that, I am sorry.???
Except, I’m not exactly that sorry.
I have always been the type of girl that loves “too much.???
I give love through my actions, my emotions, my words, and my silence. I am an affectionate person both psychically and emotionally. I want to hold your hand in in the chips aisle at Wal-Mart while we decide between Cheetos Puffs or Flaming Hot Cheetos.
I want to drink a beer with you at 2 AM and talk about what color pillows we will have in our future bedroom. Sometimes, I can be too much, talk too much, and ask too much of you.
I don’t mean to be overbearing, but with a heart as big as mine, sometimes it is hard to keep it from jumping straight into your face and latching on for dear life.
I am sorry for being too pushy about the future, but I will never be sorry for wanting one with you.
I know decorating is not so much your thing as it is mine, but oddly enough, talking about pillows is one of the many ways that I show my love. When I talk about the future with you, whether it be about our future bedroom or the color of bridesmaids’ dresses, I don’t do it to pressure you or to get on your nerves.
I’m not demanding that you marry me or buy me pillows. I am simply envisioning my life with you and I am looking to see if you are too. I am excited to see where life takes me, and I plan to take you with me. Sometimes, I may talk about the future “too much??? and it might come across a little too pushy. For this, I am sorry. You might not be the type of person to talk about these things as much as I do, and this is something that I need to work on understanding.
However, I deserve someone who will listen to me talk about pillows and smile at the thought of sharing them with me. I will never be sorry for expecting at least that.
I am sorry for blowing up your phone with texts, but I am not sorry for wanting to talk to you.
Okay, after the fourth or fifth text in a row, I can understand where your frustration is coming from. No, you don’t need to know about the socks I just bought or what just happened in my most recent episode of “Breaking Bad.??? I’m sorry for blowing up your phone for these meaningless and unimportant things.
Yes, I realize that you’re probably thinking, “why in the world is she telling me all of this???? The thing is, I like to talk— especially to you. Talking to you is just simply one of the ways that I show love. I love to hear your voice when you call, and I love knowing that the person I love more than anything is on the other end of the telephone line. I know that sometimes I call too much, talk too much, and text a little too much. I recognize that sometimes it is not necessary, and I will work on that. I am sorry for that. However, I am not sorry for wanting to talk to you all of the time.
I am not sorry for thinking of you when something happens and for wanting you to be the one I tell everything to. I tell anything and everything to you because I love you, and I deserve someone that loves me enough to listen.
I am sorry for my overwhelming trust issues, but I will not be sorry for protecting our relationship.
There have been times in the past that I have been mistreated, neglected, and knocked down to my lowest level by those whom I thought would always lift me up.
As a result from this, I tend to get a little too jealous and a little too overprotective at times. Sometimes, you might find my protective instincts unnecessary, but I do the things I do because I love you and I am scared of losing you to something or someone else. I am sorry for taking it too far sometimes, but I will not apologize for being scared.
I will not apologize for doing the best that I can to protect us, to keep us in tact, and to make sure that nothing or no one gets in the way of what we have. I will not apologize for this, because I love you too much to let us fall apart.
I am sorry for expecting to cuddling all of the time, but I won’t apologize for wanting to.
Yeah, okay. I might ask to cuddle during a movie, before we go to sleep, in the morning, when I’m sad, when I’m mad…. on a boat, on a plane, or whatever. I get that it’s annoying.
Sometimes you’re too hot, sometimes you’re too tired, and sometimes you just need your space. I need to work on understanding that just because I want to be held in that very moment, doesn’t mean I get to be held right then. Please understand, though, that I am not asking you to cuddle me because I’m trying to be “too clingy.???
I’m asking because I feel safe in your arms. Yeah, maybe I shouldn’t expect to cuddle every night, but I hope you know that I ask only because there is no where else in the world that I would rather be other than some where close to you, and I won’t apologize for that.
I love you too much, but I’m not exactly sorry for that.
Here’s the thing: I will always be the girl that loves too much. This is something that will never change. Yes, there are some things that I need to work on, such as not throwing my heart in your face so much. I hope you understand that I don’t mean to be clingy, I don’t mean to be annoying, and I don’t mean to be overbearing.
In my mind, all I am doing is expressing my love in the ways that I know how. To me, there’s nothing wrong with that. It’s not that I am not taking the blame for some of the things I do, it’s just that I do everything I do because I love you. I love you way too much, but unfortunately this isn’t something that I can shut off.
There is no on/off switch to the love I have for you. There is no volume control— I can’t turn it up or down. I realize that I can be a little crazy in love sometimes, but I will never be sorry for loving you too much.