I met you at the worst time, but I think you’re the right person. I think you could be my person.
I’m not always sure though because this is messing with my head. These feelings I have, are they love? Are they beyond a temporary high? Are you more than temporary? I just don’t know.
You’re not ready for something serious.
You’re not ready to be in yet another relationship. You’ve never been single for long, and now you crave to be okay alone, but you never expected to meet me. You never expected to fall in love so quickly, so strongly. I don’t begrudge you of feeling confused.
You don’t want to lose me, but you can’t ask me to wait until you’re ready.
Who knows how long that’ll take. So your mind is completely confused, and in your process to figure it out, you’ve left me broken and confused.
I ask myself, “How do you let go of the one person who makes you feel like everything is okay? How do you let go of your best friend…the person you fell for?” I just don’t get it.
I have to let you go, I know I do. But I’ll only do it in hopes that you’ll one day be ready for the real deal.
It’s not like it’s an easy decision or one I want to make. By letting you go, I hope you’ll be ready to be loved unconditionally without worrying about someone having any hidden ulterior motives one day. You’re so scared of letting anyone close to you after your past relationships, and that fear keeps holding you back.
I would love you to the moon and back, I’d give you the world, and I’d never screw you over. Would I hurt you? Never intentionally. Would I disappoint you at times? Probably, I’m human. Would I make you doubt my love for you? Never. But you can’t be sure. You’re not willing to risk it just yet.
I’m trying so hard to be understanding.
I’m trying so hard to be empathetic because even if I’m terrified of losing you, I know it’s important for you to find yourself. And for you to find your happiness. And that’s all I want, is for you to be happy.
So go find yourself. Find your happiness. Find what you’re looking for. And I hope one day that maybe fate, our connection, our chemistry, and our love, will bring us together again. Waiting forever for you though, it can never be an option.
I love you.
I know that letting you go is for the best and I want you to know, I wish the world for you. Because in the end, we both deserve the best, whether it’s together in the future, or both going our own separate ways.
Be happy for yourself, so maybe one day, you can be happy with me.
