If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself. -Barbara de Angelis
I used to get messages from people, randomly asking if I was okay.
I would post things relating to my feelings at the time, and I guess I was blinded by my own unhappiness.
I felt this way for many reasons, but all under one catagory… relationships.
I felt like I was lost without that other piece of someone to love me.
I was so wrong.
I figured it out, now, as much as I can feel at least.
I stopped
I learned from my own mistakes, that without stopping and observing myself I was doing things for all the wrong reasons.
I thought about my own happiness
How many times do you actually think about yourself? For me, it was hardly ever. But I realized something so cliche, but yet so completely true…
I DIDN'T LOVE MYSELF
If someone would've asked me what I love most about myself, I wouldn't have been able to answer.
So I did
I found things about about myself that I forgot existed.
I found me, then I found you
Once I found myself in the darkness and put me in the light, there you were.
No coincidence
It was no coincidence me meeting you, because once I knew I loved myself, I knew someone else could love me too.
You still push me without knowing
There's sometimes when old habits want to die hard, but instead they stay away. You make me lose sight of the negatives in myself everyday.
You build my faith in this world
For a long stretch I began to think that this world was failing at it's purpose. You have shown me differently.
All I can say is thank you
Thank you for loving me when I finally found myself, and trusting in me.
