She’s been going back and forth in her head for some time now, trying to decide if she should stay in a relationship she’s built her life around, or start over completely.
Maybe if she just gave it a few more weeks, she’ll see something in him she didn’t see before. But maybe, if she did end things, she wouldn’t feel so weighed down… maybe her heart will feel light again.
All these maybe’s only lead to sleepless nights and guilt that eats her alive even though she literally has nothing to feel guilty about.
Truly, it's a terrifying choice with two hearts at risk. Either she breaks his heart or she breaks her own staying in a relationship that doesn’t make her happy anymore.
She tells herself, well he's a good guy, I just don't love him anymore.
The thing is, if she lets him go, he can go be a good guy to someone who genuinely, one hundred percent wants him. He will be hurt, this is nearly a sure thing. But soon this monumental upset is going to seem so small to both of them.
And she can’t help but wonder, I'm so used to this life. What if I can't be alone?
Except she knows damn well she can do anything she sets her mind to. She’s afraid of being alone but at the same time, she has this excitement burning in her chest when she thinks about everything that’s out there, all the fun she has yet to have.
Is she going to be codependent in this relationship and any future relationships forever or is she going to prove to herself that she’s living the best life she can?
At the end of the day, when this is all said and done, everything is going to be fine. It’s not going to be easy, but it will be okay.
Nothing in this world is more important than her emotional and mental well being. And if she’s not happy with her circumstances then she needs to change it, because no one else is going to do it for her.
Even if a part of her with always love him, even if he’s a great guy, even if she’s scared shitless to do it on her own, the fact still remains that there is an inkling in her heart that knows he isn’t ‘it.’
There’s an ounce of her soul that isn’t happy and she deserves complete and true happiness.
She owes it to herself to follow that feeling, to be true to herself and allow her heart to lead the way.
Because then maybe, just maybe, she will find the one and he’ll be everything she’s ever dreamed of.
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