I know that it's been a while since we last saw one another. I know it seems to you like I have forgotten all about you.
That I never think about you in the ways that I used too. But I want you to know, most nights you're the only thing on my mind.
When I can't sleep, when life gets big and messy, you're the only one that I want. You're the only person that I want to tell me that it's going to be okay.
But sometimes, life doesn't work out the way that we want it too, the way that it should. And this is not different. Because the truth is, it really is over between us.
I'm not saying that to be unkind, I'm not going to lie and say that I haven't thought about trying again, about making it work. Over and over again, I just wish that everything would fall into place. But as much as I wish for you, I know that it's just not going to go anyway.
I want you to know something very important, one last thing.
Letting you go is not the same as wanting you to leave.
It's the opssite of that, in fact. I want you here more than ever, for everything. Every moment. I want you to be there for the good and the bad. For the heartbreak and the faliure. And for the good things too. For those little moments of joy, of hope.
But you can't.
It's not impossible, I know. But it's also not simple.
It figures that it would end like this. In the same way that it started. Slowly. And I wish more than anything that I could do or say something to change it all back.
But I can't.
And I want the world for you. Really, I mean that from the bottom of my heart.
But I also want the world for myself. I want to do everything, and see everything. And it's not that you would hold me back, but I think that you would keep pulling my closer to you. And as much as I want that, I also want to know that I can stand on my own two feet.
So just know, that you are the only thing that I've wanted. I can say that really and truly right now. But it's far more complicated than that. It always has been.
I haven't stopped loving you. I don't think that I could ever even imagine that. Not for only single second. But I do know one thing.
You came into my life for a reason.
I fell in love with you for a reason.
And now, after all this time, after all is said and done, now I have to leave you for a reason.
I know that you're going to be okay.
I know that it's going to hurt at first. It's going to hurt like hell to imagine our lives far away from one another, to not be able to talk everyday.
Not be able to laugh and cry and dream together.
But you're one of the strongest people I have ever known. And you taught me to be strong too.
For that, I can never thank you enough. For all the things that you have taught me, I will be forever grateful.
So, I just wanted to tell you, for the first and final time, that even though we have to say goodbye, even though it's going to leave a scar, for me, it's always been worth it.
You have always been worth every ounce of love.
But just remember, when you think about us, when you think about me, know that even though I hate to admit it, letting you go doesn't mean I love you any less. It just means that I have to walk away.
