I never thought we would ever end. I truthfully never thought I would have to move on or ever be here without you.
But here I am, finally months later I am letting go. I'm finally done hurting.
I let go long ago, but not in such a way I wanted you to go. I believed we would still work things out one day, and that maybe things would finally be ok. I'm not done hurting, fully, because you did put me in such a low place. I found that you hurting me only made me stronger and that's something that's worthy.
I was always wrong about you, and that's why I'm letting go. You hurt me in a way I could never forget, but made my eyes open. You were never good to me and we all know the truth in that. Everyone did. You only talked the talk to make me seem like such a horrible person when you were the real monster behind your fake words.
I put you on such a high pedestal that you never deserved. I believed you were the best thing that ever happened to me and that you were my one and only true love.
I believed you weren't what everyone said you were. I believed you wouldn't break my heart.
But the way you hurt me every single day wasn't true love. My pillows used to be soaked and stained, but lately the only time I shed a tear is when I'm laughing so hard.
I no longer have the huge fear every day of wondering what time you were breaking up with me and then getting back together a few hours later.
I'm done finding out about all the girls you were with behind my back. I'm done believing you love me and care about me, because it was always such an act. I am finally done letting you hurt me.
I'm done letting you cheat and calling me names. I'm done letting you make me feel like I'm so worthless and damaged. Because I'm not.
I'm not giving up, or failing anyone, I'm just starting over. I found someone who truly appreciates me. I found people who know who I am. I have gone out of my comfort zones and found things I love to do. I'm just a little bent because of you but I will never be broken because you don't deserve to have that much power over me.
This is my acceptance letter, letting you know that I'm not angry, or sad, not even a little bit questioning myself on this. I can't wait for the day you realize how much you truly f*cked up.
I'm accepting we are done forever and nothing has ever made me feel so happy and so powerful. It's a blessing; life without you.
