My friends warned me aboutguys like you.
I had to watch as they hadtheir heart broken by guys who just thought love was a game they thought they’dplay, and I picked up their broken hearts thinking it would never happen to me.
Until the first time I lookedinto your bright blue eyes, I knew you were bad news. It was so easy to loveyou.
I loved you with everythingin me. I thought that we had a future together. I thought we were both all inon the relationship and that we could work things out. Apparently, I was wrong.
I was blindsided when Ifinally realized you didn’t see a future for us. I would have stayed by yourside for the rest of my life, though the good and bad. I wanted to take on lifewith you.
Knowing you didn’t think thesame, that you didn’t want me by your side, that killed me.
I made you my whole world andyou so long you had me under the impression that you felt the same way.Everything was so perfect for a while. Then all of a sudden, everything fellapart. Nothing was the same.
You said so many things, andnever followed through. You gave me everything I could ever ask for, then oneday you took it all away.
I wonder if this was yourintentions from the beginning, making me fall in love with you when you had nointention to love me back. You had no intention of making this last.
I waited around for so longhoping you would change your mind and finally see a future with me. Althoughthat possibility is still in the back of my mind, it is time I move on.
I tried to love you with mywhole heart and all you did was blur my reality. You fooled me into thinkingyou loved when all you did was play with my feeling. The left me hurting and forgettingthe girl I used to be.
I lost myself trying to getyou to love me. Trying to be someone you would stay with. Trying to be the girlyou would love forever.
It took you shattering myheart over and over for me to understand that this isn’t love. There are moreimportant things for me to worry about then trying to get a worthless guy tolove me.
I need to take care ofmyself, because at the end of the day I have to live with myself.
When I started to pick up thepieces of my shattered heart, I was able to see more clearly. I was finallyable to think about who I am, what’s best for me, what I want and who I want tobe in the future.
There may always be a piece ofme that loves you, but I refuse to wait around anymore waiting for you to loveme back and finally treat me right.
Maybe one day you willrealize everything you lost out on and come running back. Wanting backeverything you walked away from.
This time I won’t take you back.I don’t see you as the man I used to be in love with anymore, now you are justthe man who missed his chance.
You aren’t the man I wanted tospend the rest of my life with anymore, you are the man who broke my heartbecause you couldn’t see my worth.
I see a man that missed outon loving a girl that would’ve given him the world.
I am still in love the man Ifell in love with, not the one who shattered my heart and walked away. You changed.
But so did I, now, I lovemyself more than I could ever love the man you become.
Thank you for having thestrength to walk away when I didn’t, and showing me that I deserve so muchbetter than loving a man that didn’t love me back.
