You say this is unhealthy. You say I'm being manipulative. You say it's unfair.
Well baby, I disagree with all three.
For one, it's not unhealthy to express what I want. I know myself, and I know exactly what I am hoping to get out of this relationship. It would be unhealthy if I didn't express what I wanted, or if I left you in the dark as to what I have been thinking.
And two, it's not manipulative because I am not forcing you into doing something. You have every right not to go along with what I'm asking for—that is your choice. Just know that I am prepared to do what must be done for my happiness if you choose to go down a different path from me.
And third? If you think that this is unfair, well that's your problem because I need this. I am not going to change my mind. I know you wish I would, but I wont. No amount of reasoning, pleading, or goading will shake my resolve.
What I need is this: I need to move forward. I need us to take the next step. If we don't take the next step, then what in the hell have we been doing? Where is all of this effort going? What is the point of it all?
So, I'm asking for this: either you choose to be with me in the way that I need you to be, or I'm telling you in all sincerity that I will have to walk out on us.
I have fun with you—I really do. I enjoy our time together, and I cherish the memories we've created. However, I can't go like this forever. My peace of mind is precious—so is my time. I can't sacrifice anymore of those things in the pursuit of us.
I can't be in the land of relationship limbo with you any longer.
You say, we will move forward someday, but I haven't seen any action behind those words. Your words are not enough—I need something more concrete. I need progression, I need to move forward, and I need it right now.
I won't wait around for something in the unforeseeable future. I am living in the now—the now is what's important to me—and what is happening right now is that I am compromising my well-being by waiting on you. Which is something I cannot do.
I was in a relationship with myself first, and I'll go on being in a relationship with myself long after you've gone. I have no problem being alone if it means I am moving forward. I need to do what's right for me, and if that's not being with you, that's the way it will be.
So baby, here is my ultimatum: Either we move forward, or you move out of my way. Because I have a life to live—with or without you—it's that black and white. I will leave if you don't move forward with me, so what's your choice going to be?
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