I used to drown in my own sorrow. Now, I accept the fact that my heart was broken beyond repair. I feel so damaged, everything in life right now is complicated. The pain has me lost in life, not knowing what to do next. I am stuck in the moment.
But somewhere between drowning in tears and sleepless nights, I accepted the fact that I am broken. I can’t control the past, but I can control the future. I have to take one day at a time and deal with the past.
It's time I heal all the wounds he caused. Forgive him for his actions and forgive myself for being so vulnerable. I have to come to terms with who I used to be if I want to find peace and heal the wounds. So I accept my wrongs, I trusted too easily and gave my heart away without second thought. It was too reckless, I should have given it a second thought.
All that pain turned into a lesson learned. If you are gonna love, you have to love with your whole heart without expecting reciprocation. Love should make you feel superior, not fragile.
It isn’t easy to see the bright side of this pain but I am trying. Slowly forgiving myself for letting people take me for granted. I don’t deserve to be the second choice. I am loyal and deserve someone who is loyal to me. For now on I will value my own self-worth, and set the standard so people value me.I am not scared anymore to stand up for myself.
My life is a mess, but the difference is now I accept that. Being broken taught me the purpose of my own existence. I used to think being so lost and confused made me weak, but now I see strength in my pain. Gives me a chance to start over and control of all my emotions.
Life may not have gone the way I planned but it brought me to where I am today. My broken heart had a purpose. It may still be an open wound but now I can accept the pain and learn countless lessons.
That is why I am swallowing my pride and admitting that I don’t always know what’s best for me. In the end, it all had its own reasoning. I am broken, but I will survive this.
This pain is only temporary. Although my heart was shattered, I will bounce back and be even stronger than I was before. This pain will not define me in the future. I accepted that I am broken and the person I use to be.
Now I am stepping up and making a change. I am not that same girl that I used to be. From this day forward, I will embrace my pain. I will accept everything that happen so that one day I will be able to completely heal. I may still be hurting, but I am not the girl I used to be.