Some days are better than others. To be completely honest most days lately have been wonderful. I don't think about our breakup or the fact that my heart is broken. Then days like last night and this morning happen. Here I am being upset and thinking about how hurt I am about you leaving. Then I remember that our breakup was a gift.
I know after feeling my heart get ripped out and constantly feeling attacked by "friends" about why I can't seem to let you go, I should be able to walk away. Feeling angry and hurt should stem my feelings and I should never think twice about it. Here is the thing. Our breakup and your breaking my heart was a gift to my life. While yes there are many down sides to it a lot of good has come of it to. I know now that you don't break up just because things get tough. We could have had a love of a life time but, I know now that life has bigger plans for me than just falling in love with you.
I've spent time learning about myself. I have started working on my flaws of communication, being pushy, and not thinking big picture. I have spent time learning and working on things I really do love. I have begun to change my life and become the mature and wonderful person I was meant to be. Without your giving up and breaking up with me I would never be buying a house, looking at a new truck, or focusing back on my horses and my love of blogging.
I would have continued to love you more than I loved myself. I would have continued to give and buy you the things you needed. I would be the person who held both of us back. I should never have wanted to be the girl to take care of you and hold your hand and make you feel less of a man. I should have never been willing to sacrifice the important things in my life. Your breakup gave me gifts of strength, determination, and new insight to my life.
So in many ways thank you for breaking my heart into a million pieces because you made me find myself, my priorities, and my future.
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