Our love story, is by far, my favorite. The Notebook has nothing on us. Granted, our love story is messy and filled with a plot twist here and a shake up there, it is still my favorite.
I never knew when we first met that this would happen, this thing called love. I only thought of you as a good friend, and made sure that label stood strong by keeping you at an arm’s length.
You used to hang close to me, watching my every move. I used to stand close and never even notice that you were there.
Years passed us by and conversations never deceased. The more we spoke, the closer we grew. You pulled while I pushed, and I kept pulling back closer.
Fleeting thoughts of ending up with you would cross my mind as I shoved them down deep. My life was just on the path to be with you.
After countless times of trying to see each other, we struck a pot of gold. And I approached you after so many years, I looked deep into your eyes and felt like I was finally returning to my home.
Do you remember that first kiss? On the dimly-lit porch amongst the trees and stars and moon? Yeah, that kiss. The kiss that shot me into another world, another galaxy. The one that changed the course of my heart and soul.
Over half a decade later, and I never knew that the love of my life had been standing in front of me for so long. Why didn’t I see this before? Why didn’t the Universe conspire this at a more appropriate moment?
Days passed into weeks. Weeks passed into months. We pushed and pulled at each other’s hearts. We broke each other down and destroyed every inch of each other, only to come back closer than ever. It was like a giant magnet was moving us closer and closer together every time we ran away from each other.
You challenged me while I challenged you. You taught me about love in the most obscure way. Why did I love someone that made me fall in love in the most dysfunctional way possible?
You taught me more about myself than anyone ever had in my life. You broke me down as I built myself back up. Stronger. Sturdier. You taught me to love myself fully. Wholly. And I love you for that.
You taught me to always be there for myself and fill my emotional cup to the brim. You taught me to never need you, but to desire you with all my heart and soul.
After over a year and playing this magnetic game, I have learned more about myself than I have ever learned about myself with anyone else. You have helped me grow into the person that I always was, behind all these masks and painful memories.
After over a year, not only have I learned to love myself fully, but I have learned to love everyone around me with a compassionate and unconditional heart. Even you. Through this breakdown, I have risen like the phoenix.
And, as we grow closer and discontinue this game of push-pull, I learn to love you even more every day. You are the light that brightens my soul. You are the sunshine upon my day. You are everything I want and nothing that I need, because everything I need…you taught me that I can find that within myself.
As we inch closer together, I know that I am more whole and so are you. We aren’t each other’s halves because we are each other’s whole. So, be a whole with me. Let’s fall deeper into a love where we don’t need each other. Let’s fall deeper into a love where we know that we want each other.
What makes our love story so great is that it has been built to last. Through all the breakdowns, fights, and push-pull games, we can rest assure that we don’t need each other. We can rest assure that we don’t have to complete each other. We can rest assure on that fact that we will always want each other, like two opposites on a magnet. We will always pull back together.
