Everyone goes through heartbreak at some point in his or her life. Some people will have their heart broken more than once. One thing we need to stop doing as a society is romanticizing heartbreak. Having your heart broke is so much more than song lyrics, sappy movies, and stuffing your face with ice cream.
Having your heart broke is like a near death experience. If breathing weren't natural, you wouldn't bother doing it.
It's shutting everyone out because you can't seem to find the strength to get out of your depression. And when you take a moment to leave the house and finally join the living, you drink to try and forget the pain.
It's either stalking your ex on social media and sometimes driving by their house hoping that they haven't replaced you already or total avoidance of that person and hiding from them if you happen to be unlucky enough to see them in public.
It's staring at your phone wishing they would contact you and jumping if it rings and then feeling the utter disappointment if it's anyone other than your ex. And then it's holding onto your pride so that you do not contact them.
It's being out and catching a scent of them because someone you passed uses the same detergent or cologne/perfume and at that moment all the memories you've been trying to suppress come rushing back.
It's avoiding people, places, and things that may remind you of that person.
It's crying yourself to sleep night after night and wishing the pain would just go away.
It's breaking down anywhere and at any moment: at work, in the shower, at the store, in your car, etc… These moments are the hardest because you don't want to seem weak or crazy in public so you bite your lip and dry your eyes as quickly as you can and pretend nothing is wrong. And yet you rush home so that you can be in a safe place to finally break down and cry.
And God forbid anyone gets a chance to ask you "what's wrong", because you know those two little words will make you lose all your strength and here come the waterworks.
The pain will hit you like a freight train and there is absolutely nothing you can do to stop it. All you can do is pray to God that he will grant you mercy and magically make you stop loving the person who broke you.
It's going out on dates in your attempt to move on and feeling like you'll never find someone you like again because you can't seem to form a real connection with anyone you meet regardless of how much they like you.
There is no time limit on how long you are allowed to be heartbroken. It's not exactly a choice either. You don't get to tell yourself to stop loving someone and move on at the drop of a dime but it does get better a little at a time. One day you'll notice you haven't cried in days, or weeks, or months and you'll see that you are in fact healing.
And depending on how much you loved a person, some people you just won't ever be able to shake even if you move on and stop loving them. Every now and then pieces of them and memories will resurface and you'll cringe at the thought but you'll go about your day as if that brief flashback didn't occur. That's heartbreak and the recovery isn't the same for everyone. It isn't black and white and it's certainly not beautiful or romantic. It's scary and difficult and it changes you.
