"Maybe I'm just too complicated for anyone to love."
Have you ever felt alone? Worthless? Ready to give up? You just can't get rid of it.. No matter who u have around or who you're with? Or if u are dating someone or not? Or if family is around or not? Its always there? It Just seems like u will never be happy and if u somehow do manage to be happy for a little bit you feel like you're just gonna fuck it all up?
You ARE NOT alone.
I know exactly how you feel. And I bet you're friends do too. The truth is, no one wants to talk about their feelings. They want to bottle them inside and ignore the hurt. Ignore the pain. Sometimes we self-harm. Anything to feel something besides the negative, hurtful emotions inside us. But eventually the hurt and the pain begin to bubble over. Then we explode. Some contemplate suicide; thinking it would be better if they were just gone…
I have been there. You are not the only person who has felt this way. I have attempted suicide. But that is not the answer.
“If you were born with the weakness to fall, you were born with the strength to rise.” — Rupi Kaur1 (via Danielle Lowe)
I will never give someone else the power to make myself decide that I wanna die. NEVER. I was scared to talk about how I felt; thinking no one understands or has felt those same feelings. I just want you to know that I have. I understand. And I am here for ANYONE who needs to talk or even just vent. I know this may have helped me if i would have allowed myself to be vulnerable. No one deserves to feel like they are worthless and want to end it all.
JUST SO YOU KNOW, YOU ARE WORTHY. AND YOU DESERVE TO LIVE. No matter your past or mistakes.
YOU ARE SO LOVED. Just remember that. And talk to someone; ANYONE.
“To all who walk the dark path, and to those who walk in the sunshine but hold out a hand in the darkness to travel beside us: Brighter days are coming. Clearer sight will arrive. And you will arrive too. No, it might not be forever. The bright moments might be for a few days at a time, but hold on for those days. Those days are worth the dark.” — Jenny Lawson, “Furiously Happy: A Funny Book About Horrible Things” (via Kim Morand)